Day 11: Completions / Not Running Away (8.20.11)

And this is why you should not put off doing things you must keep up with daily. Trying to remember what Day 11 was about on Day 13 is a little harder. lol Life started going a bit fast, and I just kept along and enjoyed the ride (while learning a tremendous amount along the way). πŸ˜€

Ok, Day 11. Day 11 was about starting the ball on things I’d been putting off for a long time. I tend to put things off due to fear or feelings of overwhelm (which is really the fear of not being able to handle life / the forgotten knowledge of how ridiculously awesome, capable, and powerful one really is.)

I swear to God, one day I’m going to be the bravest female to walk this planet. I’ve dealt with so many MAJOR fears in my life (and by “dealt with” I mean conquered!) and I still have so many that I’m working through now. My handle on life has NEVER been this good. Even as of last year, there were many, many days that I just couldn’t leave the house to go to school. My phyical health was fine but my mental health needed work. My mind couldn’t handle the pressure of going to school (or rather, it was convinced it could not, and it physically manifested symptoms to prove it), so I stayed home to deal with my mind and bounce back. It would take days at a time, on average, to bounce back. This was already a major step up from years prior.

Fast forward to the present: it takes me hours, on average, to work through *major* issues in my life. And I’ve had only 1 day in the entire past year where I felt I needed to be a hermit for a day to take care of internal chaos.

This is only the beginning.

The picture features two greeting cards I’m going to be sending to one of the *most* important people in my life. It’s a small victory that feels SO damn good. It’s still a surprise, so I can’t say who it is…he’ll know this is about him when he gets them. I’d gotten so overwhelmed with stuff that I’d put it off for a while. With some organizing, self-coaching, and self-loving, things are back on track. πŸ˜€ β™₯!!

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